Oh, I am so depressed.
I suppose you'll want to know why.
I want to take some college classes.
I'm 37 and for the last 9 years I haven't been working.  I'm bipolar and I suffer from crippling depression as well as migraines that can occur at any time and just knock my on my ass.  Literally, not subjectively.  Makes it hard to hold down a simple job like waitressing or cashiering.  I need a job that I am valued and cannot be easily replaced.  I also need a job where I can focus on my work, succeed and not feel unduly stressed.  
Because of my past I've been thinking that drug addiction counseling or simply counseling of any kind might be the best thing for me to pursue.
Unfortunately; my boyfriend (we've been together for 10 years but aren't married; think what you will about that) absolutely will not let me take any college classes - not even one until I have a job.  Not only that but he wants me to hold down a job for quite a while before I even consider taking a class.  
He says we just don't have the money.  Which in one way just isn't true and also, my parents would gladly loan me the money for school at any time.
What is his deal?  I don't understand.  He says he doesn't think I'll be able to do it but whether he thinks that or not he needs to be supportive.  I support his in everything he does.  Why do I get the shit end of this relationship.
I think I want out.  Our son loves his dad but he's so stern with him all the time, expecting more than the poor boy can give.  Sometimes I wonder if it wouldn't be better for both of us to just find a new life.
I've thought about it.  Very strongly.  
Now what do I do?  
What?